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WELL BUT NOT WELL
Feb. 10th, 2022 05:00 pmI've been feeling terrible this month. Not enough hours of sleep (despite being unemployed right now!), a dwindled appetite, despair at my inexperience & inability to sell myself while job searching, and an increasing insecurity of being too "head empty" since joining fandom!Twitter does that to a person. I should have the right amount of time to reread ORV, but that took me 1.5 months to read the first time around, and I can't do that again. I need to be focusing on writing all the cover letters that every job I stumble upon wants, which are things that I absolutely despise. Each cover letter is like pulling out not one tooth, but five teeth for me. I wish I knew a way to make them easier. It's the part about showing off my research into whatever company I'm applying to that gets me. I know I'd be fine at the job (usually), but I don't stick out unless I talk about the company personally. It makes me so anxious about getting it wrong, and when I get anxious I either go to sleep or abandon what I was doing (like hopping onto Twitter).
The constant scrolling on Twitter has messed up my eyes this week. I'm going to try to limit my Twitter usage. It bums me out too. Everyone is so hyperactive there, and meanwhile I'm just tired and can't think of a thought past "hmm actually Jotaro should be allowed to wear loose-fitting crop tops, Araki". I'm getting frazzled, so I'm going to try to stop turning to Twitter and Tumblr.
I ran into the Kay and Skittles youtube channel again today! I found the channel sometime last year and loved the Legend of Korra and politics series they did, but I guess I forgot to subscribe. I'm not an anarchist/communist personally--I haven't taken the time to do any proper reading--but I do like and learn from their video essays.
4 months ago they came out with a response to a counter-essay to their original LoK video, and I highly enjoyed watching it today.
In other news, my friends can't watch JJBA with me this week, so we'll be picking our watch up on next week's Thursday. I'm tempted to watch some Part 3 this weekend instead, but I'm not sure. Maybe I'll dedicate some time to completing the first Great Ace Attorney. I've let the duology slip away from me.
The constant scrolling on Twitter has messed up my eyes this week. I'm going to try to limit my Twitter usage. It bums me out too. Everyone is so hyperactive there, and meanwhile I'm just tired and can't think of a thought past "hmm actually Jotaro should be allowed to wear loose-fitting crop tops, Araki". I'm getting frazzled, so I'm going to try to stop turning to Twitter and Tumblr.
I ran into the Kay and Skittles youtube channel again today! I found the channel sometime last year and loved the Legend of Korra and politics series they did, but I guess I forgot to subscribe. I'm not an anarchist/communist personally--I haven't taken the time to do any proper reading--but I do like and learn from their video essays.
4 months ago they came out with a response to a counter-essay to their original LoK video, and I highly enjoyed watching it today.
In other news, my friends can't watch JJBA with me this week, so we'll be picking our watch up on next week's Thursday. I'm tempted to watch some Part 3 this weekend instead, but I'm not sure. Maybe I'll dedicate some time to completing the first Great Ace Attorney. I've let the duology slip away from me.
